Father’s day is fast approaching. I am feeling melancholic just thinking about it. It’s been eight (8) years since my father died. May God bless his soul.
At my father's burial (June 13, 2003). That was me in deep anguish being comforted by my mother
I have missed having a father right by my side especially on special occasions where his presence is deemed important, i.e my brother’s wedding, special occasions like birthdays, new years, father’s day and the like.
He passed away at the age of 43. Life would have been a lot different had he been alive today. I was only 23 then and have been employed at a private institution for three years. Right after I was out of college, I was aiming to help the family to rise up from poverty. But when he died, I still haven’t achieved my goal. His death was the most painful that I have ever experienced in my entire life. It’s like losing a part of myself. My heart was broken into pieces. I was a shattered soul. The memories of him leaving us for good still brings back a pang of pain. When he left, I have simply altered my perceptions on death. Life just does not end because my heart is tattered. There’s always a reason to move on.
I had to comfort my mother while I was frequently having nightmares. I can’t be out of the house for long. I was mostly with young brethren at church at the time and my mother keeps sending me SMSes telling me she needs me home. Everytime I reach home, she was wiping her eyes dry from crying. I had to give up my friends for a while just to be with her. It was one of the toughest times that the family had to hurdle.
Another father’s day is soon to be celebrated without our father with us. I can’t help but miss his presence in our lives. But life has to move on. It doesn’t mean he is forgotten though. His memories will always live on.
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June 16th, 2011 at 11:40 am
as long as his memories are in your hearts, he is there. my dad is still living but i know how much it hurts, and as you have said, life must go on. and for sure he doesn’t want all of you sad or still grieving. just celebrate father’s day even he’s not around physically.
visiting you from NOstalgia.
here’s mine:
http://everyday-is-a-new-day-vhen.blogspot.com/2011/06/college-friends.html
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Lainybelle Reply:
June 16th, 2011 at 8:56 pm
Yes, like I’ve said in the above post he will never be forgotten and his memories will always live on.
Thanks for the visit Vhen. Gotta visit your entry soon.
See yah!
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June 16th, 2011 at 11:46 am
nalungkot naman din ako d2. lost my mom in 1992,lost my dad just last nov, making me and my two bro’s ORPHANS:(
but ur dad is 43…must be tough. but just as u said, death is something we should accept for us to carry on w/ our lives.
i am moved.
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Lainybelle Reply:
June 16th, 2011 at 9:00 pm
Hi Riz. Sorry I just had my emotitis attack, LOL! Sorry to hear about you and your siblings being an orphan now.
Thanks for being here.
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June 17th, 2011 at 12:38 am
I’m sorry to hear your story about the lost of your father. I bet he is happy for having you as his daughter. Though he’s not on you and your Mom’s side, he still watching you somewhere.
God bless you always.
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June 17th, 2011 at 3:11 am
Wahhhhhh you are making me cry with your entry, I feel the same way with my father.. 53 lang si papa when he died.. Anong month si papa mo pumanaw sis? Si papa kasi mage eight years na din this July… May our fathers found the peace up there with Him.
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June 17th, 2011 at 7:28 am
Sorry about that, Rose. June 9, 2003 namatay ang Papa ko Rose. It has been 8 years.
May they rest in peace indeed!
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June 17th, 2011 at 5:50 am
Dear Lainy,I almost cried…I’m sorry to hear your loss.my father died too when I was still 9 years old and it was tough for us most especially to my mother.
Your father is watching you and your family in heaven right now..
http://ties-bonding.blogspot.com/2011/06/their-laugh-is-my-joy.html
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June 17th, 2011 at 7:29 am
Sorry for almost making you cry, Clang. You were even younger when your own father died pala. That must have been tougher.
Thanks for the visit. Gonna visit your entry soon.
See yah!
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June 17th, 2011 at 9:42 am
You are a good daughter Lainy and tough enough to handle such situations, you were even there when your Mom needs you, instead of thinking of yourself of how to cope up with your struggle in losing your father. Your family is so lucky to have you.
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June 18th, 2011 at 7:18 pm
hello lainy. yeah, same here, I miss my dad, too. he passed away 9 years ago at age 51. Ambabata pa nila ano? He was not able to see my 2 brothers and I got married and never saw one single apo. But that’s life. We have to accept the reality and move on. We’ve accepted his death because he was sick of cancer and his suffering was more unbearable. Although painful, at least it had prepared us all. Pero maganda nga sana if our dads are still around today. Daddy’s girl kasi ako.. Thanks for sharing your experiences. Nakakaiyak din. You’re right, memories of them lives on. Happy father’s day pa rin sa kanila =)
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June 20th, 2011 at 9:08 am
I salute your courage to write about your father. Ako, hindi ko pa kaya, more so because I just lost my Mom, 33 months after he passed away. It was too soon to lost both. My Dad’s 3rd death anniv will be next month – the day following his birthday.
Father’s Day today got me so sad. But life has to go on for all the fathers in the world. It’s their special day, and they deserve it.
sad ako Sis, but I’m trying so hard to cope.
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June 20th, 2011 at 11:39 pm
My father died 21 years ago. You know, you are the 3rd blogger now I have encountered who blogged about their father who died 8 years ago. Tulo mo nga otso ka tuig since namatay ang mga amahan.
I also miss my father. I regretted it so much I wasn’t able to show him much I love him. Instead I gave him pain.
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June 21st, 2011 at 9:31 am
I’m kinda guilt as I did not post anything father’s day related topic. But even without the greeting and celebration, I’m happy that he’s still alive… together with his other woman.
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June 22nd, 2011 at 12:51 am
nakakaiyak naman dito….so sorry about your loss Lainy…am sure your dad is very proud of you.
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September 21st, 2011 at 10:49 am
i read this quote more than decades ago but got stuck on my mind: “You have to dig deep to bury your father.”
so sorry to hear you lost your father eight years ago, lainy. what matters now though is that he is never forgotten and lives in you.
*hugs*
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